instructions for my impending demise: by ShayneBailey, literature
Literature
instructions for my impending demise:
at 2 this morning it rained
for the first time
since we delivered ourselves here,
where i feel close to
sage & brush
blushed & chapped
with altitude &
wild wild things in the west,
wild in a different way
than i am familiar with,
where the blistered crater of the valley
cradles & nestles us out of sight
mountain ranges locked tight,
so much like
hands clasped in prayer
or grief probably,
where i expect
at any moment
to befriend a
tumblew
i.
on the other side:
dread sores pulse smoke
& the dirge sounds,
& the bell tolls,
a morning toast
to surviving the night
revelry like shrapnel
brief & blinding
an endless watch
for the endless night
constant vigilance
for the heartsick
a disease that
creeps & slithers
decays &
withers -
floodlights act
as sudden dawn
as i fly
fangs gnashing
claws curling
champions of light
chanting my name
as they hunt
as i run
crying havoc
& porch lights act
as signals home
as i fly
already half undressed
through the
weeping fog
toward my nest, heavy black
drapes slu
i. One of us is not what
we pretend to be
I confess, often
it is me—
quaking thighs of fire and rind
wide wild
orange wedge smiles
thunder and grime
tangy rot
in the gut
curling wild flame
in the gut
I will caress the corners
of your split hungry lips
as a cigarette
bitter breath, a thousand
burning deaths—
burning curling flesh
a thousand voiceless breaths
a thousand
sacrifices to flame
that come in waves
frightening phantoms
come in waves
crushing waves
I will resurrect sinking nights
to rise from the grave
as moths buried
in angles of cloth,
I.
Monday, and I cannot get out of bed. Scratchy, stained sheets wrap around me as a death shroud. I revel in the aloneness, cry out at the aloneness, make love to the silence, desperate and reaching for god.
Runny nose, a headache from last week comes back to life. Muscles ache. Everything aches.
I come up for air, sharps inhales that drag against my mottled lungs. Consider quitting smoking. Consider making toast, but the soft flesh of my ear yawns, pops, awake, and I can hear you bustling about, getting ready for work. Are you as tired as I am? I am afraid to get up, afraid to ask you.
The toilet flushes, a spray of cologne and a quic
The death of me:
a hiccup
a slip
a misspoken word or two and a
limp dick, split spitty cracked lips and
rotted teeth like vampire fangs to me;
a heaving cough
a trecherous laugh
a deep rumbling and a smoky exhale,
dying lungs running to catch up
with the fire
in your singing brain
(knotted, whirled fingers plucking at the
sticky strings of my muscles
drumming at my spine
pulsing tongue cramming my mouth
beating you into me)
freckles dusting
at your shoulders,
the sun in your
eyes ballooning into a supernova;
sickly-sweet and
so warm
too warm as your
sweet stitched pink skin
curls in on itself
edges ragged and chewed,
a taut shiny scar wink
A slow yawn
first breakfast of dawn
tangled like yarn in the
sheets, wide vampire eyes
swallowing
everything,
daywalkers in the streets
I can't feel anything
but teeth pulling me apart
seam by seam
I un-know everything
and
neatly, all at once
I am pressed between
long arms, ravenous limbs,
cries dying in the back
of my throat
my heart swallowed in the back
of my throat
words caught
behind my
lips, lush lips
pressed between my thighs
a sigh
sweet bellows of desire
I am pressed between
the world and you
all at once
caught
by daylight in my
eyes
the sky so sharp
and clean;
breathing is too much for me
ice in my
lungs,
breathe
breathe,
you are t
I know that I am a stranger;
the heat sneaks quickly in (a slow burn, if you will) and threatens to eat you up. Animals chase around your limbs like wildfire, leaving blackened ruins in their wake (you are a pagan princess, imagine). They itch under your flaking skin, growling red monsters explode from your eyeballs. You want more than anything to drown them. Angry red sores bubble up (you are hideous). I know that you once treated your dog very poorly. If people knew, what would they say (god, can you imagine?)?
If you were the kind of person that looked nice in
hats - ?
Cease fire;
the commute downstairs and
sleepy beehives
the trecherous slope backward
daylight savings time.
Apathy in the bubblebath
apathy in the cupboards
apathy in sweet creases of the covers,
a parade of lambs
impersonate the neighbors
lock the door.
Tendrils of wild curling hair
caught in my teeth, breakfast
swirled fingerprints, hollowed chest,
cave-man brow, eyelash, hobbit feet.
Madness, an aching in the loins,
bursting organs
bursting
bursting
Homesickness;
the collective sigh and
mute birds
a purging of the gut
vomit in the sink.
Anxiety in the corners
anxiety in the shower
anxiety in the sour fingers
of a smoker, bitten bloody na
instructions for my impending demise: by ShayneBailey, literature
Literature
instructions for my impending demise:
at 2 this morning it rained
for the first time
since we delivered ourselves here,
where i feel close to
sage & brush
blushed & chapped
with altitude &
wild wild things in the west,
wild in a different way
than i am familiar with,
where the blistered crater of the valley
cradles & nestles us out of sight
mountain ranges locked tight,
so much like
hands clasped in prayer
or grief probably,
where i expect
at any moment
to befriend a
tumblew
i.
on the other side:
dread sores pulse smoke
& the dirge sounds,
& the bell tolls,
a morning toast
to surviving the night
revelry like shrapnel
brief & blinding
an endless watch
for the endless night
constant vigilance
for the heartsick
a disease that
creeps & slithers
decays &
withers -
floodlights act
as sudden dawn
as i fly
fangs gnashing
claws curling
champions of light
chanting my name
as they hunt
as i run
crying havoc
& porch lights act
as signals home
as i fly
already half undressed
through the
weeping fog
toward my nest, heavy black
drapes slu
i. One of us is not what
we pretend to be
I confess, often
it is me—
quaking thighs of fire and rind
wide wild
orange wedge smiles
thunder and grime
tangy rot
in the gut
curling wild flame
in the gut
I will caress the corners
of your split hungry lips
as a cigarette
bitter breath, a thousand
burning deaths—
burning curling flesh
a thousand voiceless breaths
a thousand
sacrifices to flame
that come in waves
frightening phantoms
come in waves
crushing waves
I will resurrect sinking nights
to rise from the grave
as moths buried
in angles of cloth,
I.
Monday, and I cannot get out of bed. Scratchy, stained sheets wrap around me as a death shroud. I revel in the aloneness, cry out at the aloneness, make love to the silence, desperate and reaching for god.
Runny nose, a headache from last week comes back to life. Muscles ache. Everything aches.
I come up for air, sharps inhales that drag against my mottled lungs. Consider quitting smoking. Consider making toast, but the soft flesh of my ear yawns, pops, awake, and I can hear you bustling about, getting ready for work. Are you as tired as I am? I am afraid to get up, afraid to ask you.
The toilet flushes, a spray of cologne and a quic
The death of me:
a hiccup
a slip
a misspoken word or two and a
limp dick, split spitty cracked lips and
rotted teeth like vampire fangs to me;
a heaving cough
a trecherous laugh
a deep rumbling and a smoky exhale,
dying lungs running to catch up
with the fire
in your singing brain
(knotted, whirled fingers plucking at the
sticky strings of my muscles
drumming at my spine
pulsing tongue cramming my mouth
beating you into me)
freckles dusting
at your shoulders,
the sun in your
eyes ballooning into a supernova;
sickly-sweet and
so warm
too warm as your
sweet stitched pink skin
curls in on itself
edges ragged and chewed,
a taut shiny scar wink
I know that I am a stranger;
the heat sneaks quickly in (a slow burn, if you will) and threatens to eat you up. Animals chase around your limbs like wildfire, leaving blackened ruins in their wake (you are a pagan princess, imagine). They itch under your flaking skin, growling red monsters explode from your eyeballs. You want more than anything to drown them. Angry red sores bubble up (you are hideous). I know that you once treated your dog very poorly. If people knew, what would they say (god, can you imagine?)?
If you were the kind of person that looked nice in
hats - ?
i am tired today.
loose threads escape the count;
count dracula breathes sweetly
from underneath the bedsheets.
fling open the window.
it's very hot here, away
from the men of mind and
away from children in sweatshops.
i imagine we are in a cabana,
somewhere, dracula and i.
i imagine we used to like it
here.
it's very, very hot in here,
the blood curdling and i am
crying over the spilled milk.
everything reeks in the decay
of the day. the body is strung
on a highwire in the livingroom,
but he is sleeping in today.
god, i hope he is sleeping, god,
i hope he is dreaming, god, is he
god, i am so tired today. i hid
the hatch
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